I hate January.

I just really hate this month.
Besides March, its my least favorite month.
But this January has really flown by, and yet it feels like it wont end.
Funny how that works.
I just watched Moulin Rouge, which was amazing.
It makes me want to fall in love, so bad.
Its like nothing is wrong, ever.
Im sure that love is not perfect, but its better than being single.
I've noticed my crushes don't last very long.
So, maybe if someone asked me out for once, it would last.
Im not hinting or anything...

I miss Sam and Janelle.
I have barely hung out with them all week, and now they're in Albany.
But they're coming home tomorrow. :)

Today was a realllly realllly good day.
I woke up at like 8 ish, and my dad and I were gonna go driving,
but he was gonna finish reading,
so I went back to bed for a little.
Then he came in and said it was too icy to practice driving.
Then Wake called and said that all drives today were cancelled.
And Im pretty glad, because I got to sleep and relax all day.
Just music, and chill-ness.
And my brother and angie came over today.
So it was just an all-around good day.

Schoooool.
Everytime I say it my stomach flips.
Im nervous about the Running Start Test
But,
I can manage.
Im smart, and there are always re-takes.
New semester starts Monday.
Only one period changes haha
But Photography is so much better than history.
I love taking pictures, but I feel like its so....cliche.
Everyone does it, and there are only a few photos that can take my breath away, ya know?
Well, it should be fun.
And New CASEE kids...
hmm.
Thats all I have to say about that.

I know copying is the most sincere form of flattery, but seriously, I feel like
EVERYTHING I do is copied.
And its starting to piss me off.
I do certain things to get away from people,
or to do something on my own,
and of course they follow.
Maybe I just wont tell someone when I want to do something.

Its amazing how much things can change.
Well maybe this change im experiencing has been building up over some time, but
im ready for it now.
Im so tired of some people.
Its like, Im over coming back to them.
I'm not gonna name names,
but its time I start branching out I think.
I've changed for the better, or at least have stayed true to myself,
and they really haven't, and I dont need that right now.
I dont even know how to describe it.
Its sad when people can let others influence them negativly, and they change for the worst.

I miss Hawaii.
I've been there twice.
Its an amazing little state,
and I want to go back.
I've Got Hawaii-Fever.
Too bad airfare aint cheap.
Like my whole life I've wanted to move to New York.
But Now Im getting sick of the cold,
and Hawaii Is looking pretty nice.
My parents want me and Sara to go to college in Hawaii,
because my whole family loves it there.
And Now Im starting to think thats not so bad.
Maybe I will move to New York after college.
Who knows.

Life is so exciting.
It kind of seems like right now all I'm doing is planning for something,
and I don't know what that something is,
but I know its gonna be amazing.
So, I keep taking foward steps.
Hooray for good planning.

Today I got the best advice.
"If you can't do something about it right now, then stop worrying."
Try applying that today.
I promise it will help.

Its almost 1:30,
and I think I'll make this one an all nighter.
Ta-ta.

Im always tired.

Or so it feels like.
I never get enough sleep.
I love naps,
I just hate that regular sleep schedule.
I love three day weekends.
I really hate scene kids.
But I do feel bad for every kid stuck here in Battle Ground,
who would much rather live somewhere more...exciting.
I love the people here,
but its just the location I dont like.
New York will be amazing.
Italy will be amazing.
Anywhere out of the Pacific Northwest will be amazing.
Im too tired to get all deep.
Ipod, here I come.
Or Garden State.
I've been meaning to watch that...

Running Low on Sleep and Ambition.

I recently heard that if you sleep an average of 8 eight hours a night,
everynight, you live about 2 years longer.
So.
Im headed in the direction of living till Im...24 or so....
I seriously am incapible of getting into bed before midnight.
Between myspace...and school.
Haha
I know I shouldnt be on right now, and I should be working on my independent project,
but It felt like a good vent time.

So.
Who says a 15 year old cant be stressed?
Between my new job, my meeting for early graduation, drivers ed, independent projects, finals, new semester, life, friends, boy, AND learning how to drive, I'm always pooped.
But I like doing all this.
I KNOW Im doing it for my future.
I KNOW Im going to do something with my life,
instead of live in Battle Ground, pop out 6 kids, and get wrinkles when Im 30.

I dont even want to think of anything but whats happening RIGHT now, though.
Or the things I will get in the most trouble for if I dont do.
For instance,
my stupid independent project, and drivers ed homework.
My two least favorite things.

My lips have been freakishly chapped lately and its a major distraction.
So I've upped the water intake, (which is hard to do) and Ive put on chapstick like every 20 minutes, and nothing.

Ahh
Boys.
AGAIN.
Surprisingly are not my biggest worry.
Actually they really arent even a worry at all. Ive stopped looking, and BAM I found a cute, funny boy who I love to talk to. And we actually talk. And I dont feel dumb or unworthy or anything around him.
But were like just friends. I totally have a crush, but Im not acting on it.
And for once...Im happy.
I dont need someboy to make my day worth while.
Gosh, Im so wise...

Friends.
I love them and I hate them.
I love love friends who support me in everything.
I do not love having friends Ive known for forever change right in front of my eyes, and then I realize how stupid they are being, and I cant do anything about it.
Maybe Im a goody goody, but I dont care.
I honestly dont, because if you have to hide something, (from best friends or family) then you SHOULDNT do it.
Why cant everyone just realize that???

Well.
The semester is ending next week,
I have a meeting with my consuler and parents tomorrow about graduating early, a drivers ed quiz, independent project, and sleep to work on.
So I wish you all luck with finals.
And remember kids-get more sleep.

Long Time, No Blog.

Its been quite some time since Ive been on here.
So, I have a lot of ground to cover.
Lets begin with my soreness of the body.
I swear everything hurts today and for various reasons.
-My butt hurts because I have Indian leg wrestled waaaay too much.
-My hand hurts because I was dancing on my treadmill, and my ipod went flying, and I smashed my hand under the handle.
-The tops of my legs hurt because Ive done alot of treadmill this week.
-My inner thighs hurt because Mr. Freeman thought it would be fun to do flights of stairs.
-My neck hurts because my bangs make me put my head down all the time to see stuff, and Im not used to it.
-My legs have random sharp pains today.
-My ear hurts because I think my earphones gave me a bump in my ear
-My head hurts because I have barely slept in the last week.
So I would say, overall Im sore.
But its a sore that feels good.
If that makes any sense at all.

Going back to school hasn't been so bad. Except for the fact that overall I realllllly hate school.
Im always so bummed when I have to go. It just seems like there is so much more I could be doing. But I love the people, and its just highschool. Its not like im in the military.

Boys. Boys. Boys.
Ive honestly given up on LOOKING for a boyfriend. Sure, I want one, but doesnt mean I have to waste time impressing them. Im so less stressed when Im not worrying about how I look or what I say around guys.
I do think a few boys are cute that go to my school, but if nothing happens ITS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.
There are 3,362,269,511 boys in the world.
Im sure one of them will date me. But for now, getting up my grades, organizing my life a little bit at a time, de-stressing my days, working out, hanging with friends and family, and relaxing are my biggest concerns.
But, if you are a cute, single, boy reading this and you WOULD like to date me, feel free to let me know haha.
Plus, guys are idiots.
If I laugh at their not funny jokes, smile at them, talk to them about their interests, and drop hints IT MEANS I LIKE YOU.
Maybe I started reading a book because I thought you would like it, and notice that I'm reading it or started listening to a band I thought you would like. SO NOTICE DAMNIT.
Wait, I forgot Im over worrying...

Clear the road, Battle Ground. I've started driving.
I got my permit last week, and my dad is taking me driving.
I thought I would totally be able to handle it, and I would be speeding in no time.
Not exactly the case...
Im scared to death, I keep screwing up, and Im perfectly content going twenty UNDER the speed limit.
I know getting good at driving takes practice, but Im pretty impatient.
I have seen some people I know while Im driving, which is cool I guess.

Heres a little something I would like to get out there.
DONT DRINK OR DO DRUGS, YOU IDIOTS.
Drinking in highschool is not part of "growing up."
If you want to grow up, then make smart decisions.
Then, you can call yourself grown up.
I understand drinking in highschool doesn't make you an alcoholic,
but is that really an image you want to portray?
I'd rather pass on drinking until I'm old enough to, and get some respect,
then to slur my words and throw up trying to fit in.
I dont know if people think its attractive to drink, or do drugs,
but I know I would much rather have a boyfriend who is clean, and can be funny just by being himself, then someone who smells like beer.
It just sucks when people you thought you knew make stupid decisions, not just drinking, but just bad choices in general, and its hard to look at them the same.
Maybe I sound like a mom,
but I feel good when I go to sleep at night.
And my best friends, like my all-time TRUE best friends dont drink or smoke pot or anything,
and they are the ones I love the most, and I respect the most.
You don't have to listen to me,
and I dont hate kids our age who drink or do drugs,
but just know that my respect for you is lowered.

Italy Update.
My parents are now writing notes to me in Italian, and I love it.
Its such a pretty language.
Haha, Italy is one of the 3 romance languages (the other two being french and Spanish) and English is a Germanic language.
I HATE GERMANY.
I have a meeting this month with my counselor to talk about what I need to do to graduate early, because there is no way Im going to highschool in Italy.
Online courses, maybe, but If Im in Europe for a year, Im going to live it up.
Summer school doesnt bother me, and my grades are going up.
All in all, I cannot wait until the summer of '09. Is it bad that Im not going to miss school even a little bit?
Well I will miss CASEE, and thats about it, and my friends.

I really cant think of anything else to say.
Oh except my dad is talking about getting everyone in my family new macbooks.
:)
My laptop is like 3 years old, and he says its ancient.
But its really funny because like 6 months ago, my dad HATED macs, now he wants everyone to get one.
But Im really excited because I've always wanted a mac.
And they are way faster than my laptop, have almost no viruses, (or maybe they have none, I dont remember) it comes with a built in webcam, comes with a video editing program (the only one I know how to use, and I dont have it), and its great for just being creative.
I really really really want one now.
Actually, everyone in my family wants a new laptop.

So folks, thats all.
Oh, if you want to comment my blog, just get a blogger account, and comment.
Since like only 2 people comment me.
Just tell me who you are when you do, because its a little confusing.
I've decided to go to bed in 2.5 hours.
Because I havent gotten to bed before 1 or 2 in weeks.
Gooooooood Night, Battle Ground