Hello, Holiday.

I dont know why I feel stressed around the holidays.
At my age Im sure this isnt good.
But I do.
And I cant help it. It all started when I was in 5th grade. I think sometimes Im happier when there is conflict in my life. Without it, I feel like there should be something wrong, and it sure does not take me long to find that something. This is bad, I think, but I really dont want to worry about it right now. I'll wait till this problem comes back to bite me in the ass in 10 years...
Anywho,
Today I was stressed. For a lot of reasons, but mostly people. Thanksgiving should be stress free, but heaven forbid it should be. (I watched Evan Almighty today and I hope I dont get in trouble for saying "heaven forbid") Anyway...The Macys Thanksgiving Day Parade is MY thing. Like, I brought it back to this family. And as the 81st Annual Parade came on today, I was stoked. And I had to leave to get butter for the turkey, so I paused it, because I didnt want to miss anything, and I was having fun watching it with Sara and talking to Janelle about it. Well, when I came back to the television, anime was on, and my parade was dunzo. Now, if you dont know me, then I will tell you that I HATE anime with a passion. I probably hate it more than anything in this world. And with only 12 minutes left of the parade, I was pissed. I barely got to see a half hour of it, without it being gone. Sure, there are re-runs the day after, but is it the same? NO. So, my sister, a very understanding person of my needs, went upstairs to watch the last 12 minutes of the parade, and we got to see Santa. But thats it.
That pretty much shot my T-day to heck. Well, most of it. Thank goodness my mom and sister were there to listen, and everyone of my friends that I texted. Who knew that hiding in a messy room with a bowl of puppy chow could chill you out so much?
Anyway, thanksgivng wasnt too bad I guess. I just really need to learn how to relax for once.
Please God Please let Christmas be better....
I really want to start a website. Scratch that. I am starting a website.
Thats all you get to know.
Well thanksgiving dishes are calling, and its almost 12:3o in the morning.
I have to get up in about 4 hours, and I have so much crap to do, you dont even know.
Im to tired its unbelievable. Ive gotten about 4 hours sleep in the last 24 hours. Its just one of those nights where im exhuasted, but I dont want to go to sleep, because if I do, then I have to wake up to a day I really dont want to face. It wouldnt be so bad if I didnt have to get my picture taken, which I really really really hate.
On that happy note, HAPPY THANKSGIVING, and I hope that your holidays are stress free. (But dont be afraid to be in a bad mood, its healthy to be pissed and vent, but just get over it.)