I hate January.

I just really hate this month.
Besides March, its my least favorite month.
But this January has really flown by, and yet it feels like it wont end.
Funny how that works.
I just watched Moulin Rouge, which was amazing.
It makes me want to fall in love, so bad.
Its like nothing is wrong, ever.
Im sure that love is not perfect, but its better than being single.
I've noticed my crushes don't last very long.
So, maybe if someone asked me out for once, it would last.
Im not hinting or anything...

I miss Sam and Janelle.
I have barely hung out with them all week, and now they're in Albany.
But they're coming home tomorrow. :)

Today was a realllly realllly good day.
I woke up at like 8 ish, and my dad and I were gonna go driving,
but he was gonna finish reading,
so I went back to bed for a little.
Then he came in and said it was too icy to practice driving.
Then Wake called and said that all drives today were cancelled.
And Im pretty glad, because I got to sleep and relax all day.
Just music, and chill-ness.
And my brother and angie came over today.
So it was just an all-around good day.

Schoooool.
Everytime I say it my stomach flips.
Im nervous about the Running Start Test
But,
I can manage.
Im smart, and there are always re-takes.
New semester starts Monday.
Only one period changes haha
But Photography is so much better than history.
I love taking pictures, but I feel like its so....cliche.
Everyone does it, and there are only a few photos that can take my breath away, ya know?
Well, it should be fun.
And New CASEE kids...
hmm.
Thats all I have to say about that.

I know copying is the most sincere form of flattery, but seriously, I feel like
EVERYTHING I do is copied.
And its starting to piss me off.
I do certain things to get away from people,
or to do something on my own,
and of course they follow.
Maybe I just wont tell someone when I want to do something.

Its amazing how much things can change.
Well maybe this change im experiencing has been building up over some time, but
im ready for it now.
Im so tired of some people.
Its like, Im over coming back to them.
I'm not gonna name names,
but its time I start branching out I think.
I've changed for the better, or at least have stayed true to myself,
and they really haven't, and I dont need that right now.
I dont even know how to describe it.
Its sad when people can let others influence them negativly, and they change for the worst.

I miss Hawaii.
I've been there twice.
Its an amazing little state,
and I want to go back.
I've Got Hawaii-Fever.
Too bad airfare aint cheap.
Like my whole life I've wanted to move to New York.
But Now Im getting sick of the cold,
and Hawaii Is looking pretty nice.
My parents want me and Sara to go to college in Hawaii,
because my whole family loves it there.
And Now Im starting to think thats not so bad.
Maybe I will move to New York after college.
Who knows.

Life is so exciting.
It kind of seems like right now all I'm doing is planning for something,
and I don't know what that something is,
but I know its gonna be amazing.
So, I keep taking foward steps.
Hooray for good planning.

Today I got the best advice.
"If you can't do something about it right now, then stop worrying."
Try applying that today.
I promise it will help.

Its almost 1:30,
and I think I'll make this one an all nighter.
Ta-ta.