And it's about time I start acting like it.
Sure, I've never been the person who is always there for other people, or the natural "mother" of the group, but I haven't done in my life what is going to make sure I live exactly the kind of life I want to.
There is so much ahead of me as a 1/2 way through high school student.
And I'm not just talking about making sure I give myself half hour bubble baths scheduled in once a week, (although I do love taking baths with a good book and candles.) No, I am talking about making sure I am setting up habits thats will carry onto the rest of life.
Such as actually doing homework, or learning how to wake myself up instead of sleeping in and making everyone else late.
It's the little things that add up, and that is probably one of the best lessons I will ever learn. (Aside from don't eat yellow snow, and that everything Oprah tells you could be false.)
I have big dreams. Sure, I am not sure what my "big thing" in life is. But it's okay with me.
There is so much out there...so many places to travel, so many people to meet, so many emotions to feel, and so much love to enjoy.
I may just be 15, and hey, even that sounds a little young to me, but I know that life is much too short to just sit and accept what is handed to you.
I have friends who I know aren't going to go anywhere in their life. The are going to get married straight out of high school, pop out 18 kids, and barely scrape by month to month. Maybe that's okay with them, but it sure as hell will not be my path of life.
There is absolutely NO reason for us kids not to have the future we deserve. Excuses are something I am great at, but I REFUSE to have an excuse for why my life cannot be all that I want it to be.
I have a good 100 years ahead of me, and I plan to enjoy every minute of it.
Not aspiring to be anyone else but me. Because, hey, who will everyone else look up to? :)
Sometimes it just hits you how many millions and millions of people surround. Actually, 6,677,563,921 to be exact.
I do not want to be famous for acting. Or singing. Far from it, actually. I just want to be happy, and proud of my life.
Perhaps Strikeforce fighting isn't the best thing to be watching at a break through time like this, but hey, those guys are rippppppped.
I guess break throughs just kind of hit you. Like this.
I think one of the worst things you can do is to shove everything under the rug, slap a smile on, and call it good.
Sure, I am guilty of doing that quite a bit, but I realize this.
We have problems.
We all do. It isn't a sin, and it isn't something to be ashamed of. How are we supposed to enjoy the times when we are honestly, genuinely, beautifully happy when can't work through the rough patches?
The biggest piece of crap I have ever heard is, "Just be happppppy. Just Forgettttttttt. Smileeeeeee."
Okay, as an honest-to-blog happy go lucky girl, even I know that is bullshit. And I PRIDE myself on being a happy person.
It's just Hippy Mumbo Jumbo.
I think people give that advice when they don't know what to say.
When you have a problem, LAY IT ON THE TABLE.
Seriously I guarentee a cleared head is the way to the best nights of sleep.
Grab a friend, family member, pen and paper, sketch book, or online blog.
Anything.
And I promise you will feel better once it's out there. I'm not saying it's gonna solve itself, but at least it's not cooped up.
Life is far to beautiful and far too short to lose it on sadness.
There is no excuse for an unhappy life.
There is no excuse for a chance to miss out on everything you've ever wanted to do.
I think this summer is defiantly going to be a summer of self realization and just getting to know myself and what I am seriously capable of. (Besides getting hired at a minimum wage job and getting my drivers license.)
My eyes are in pain from this whole staying awake, but baby, when you gotta vent, you gotta vent.
Life has been, is, and will continue to be nothing short of beautiful in every way it can be.
And you can quote me on that.
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