We Can All Survive Two Days.

That's all.
2 DAYS.
Then sweet sweet freedom of our first official break of the year.
Well, bitter sweet for some college kids.
After the break we have 1 week until finals, but then almost a month off until new quarter begins.
YES.
I will be doing homework all day Wednesday and Thursday because I'm not celebrating Turkey Day until Friday.
It's hard to believe that it's this week.
I love Thanksgiving so so so so much.

I'm in ipod rehab.
Not by choice.
I had to quit my ipod cold turkey when it died on the treadmill, and I feel like the withdrawls are only getting worse, not better
over time.
If someone would just give me their ipod video classic for free, I'd be more than willing to make them cookies, or fudge or a sandwhich.
More than willing.

I re-pierced my nose for the 4th time last night.
It hurt so bad I was crying, but it was so worth it.
I hate piercing it on my own because it's not a fast simple process like the two times I got it done professionally.
But it saves $30-$40.
So worth it.

I will never smoke pot.
I will never smoke a cigarrette.
I will never smoke hookah.
I will never do any illegal drug.
And I honestly think I will never drink.
I mean all of that.
I wish people who said things like that actually did.
The other day I heard the excuse to doing things like smoking and drugs was, "Well. That's high school."
No.
No is what I couldn't say. But what I meant.
High School is NO excuse to engage in illegal activities.
If our generation is so set on "change" and acting like adults, then start setting good examples for future generations.
I'm ending friendships for repetitive bad choices made.
I'm not going to surround myself with people who lie to me about things they've done (trust me, I always find out) or people who I don't feel comfortable hanging out with because they might persuade me to do things that are wrong.
I've got enough will power to say no.
That's not the problem.
I just don't want to be sucked into their mess.
I've shed way too many tears over trying to mend friendships. I now realize I'm not going to try and fix something that I'm better than.
I'm going to live a productive life filled with ups and down, but I won't be under the influence for any of it.
And that is a pretty incredible thing to say.
If you don't like it, then I'm not sorry.
I'm perfectly okay with not having a lot of friends for now, if that means I know I'm doing good things with my life.
More time to focus on family, school, and my future.
You can't lie to me for so long and expect me to be okay with that.

Whoa.
How come every time I start writing a bunch of emotional stuff just comes out?
I don't know.
But I'm okay with it.
It's time to watch a chick flick and do some laundry.
Tomorrow is Monday....and Thursday.
Oh heck to the yes.

this will be a short blog

Im at Clark on saras iPod touch and its hard to type on but I thought I would post a blog since I am incredibly bored. So...I guess that's all. One week until thanksgiving and one week and one day until my family gets to celebrate it! Okay now I'm done.

Sometimes

Sometimes all I need is someone to vent to and some Regina Spektor.
It's a feeling where I want to cry, and feel like I'll feel better after.
But I feel like if I cry tonight, I won't stop until I get everything off my chest in the form of tears.
I'm happy, I'm just in a weird place.
All I know is my chest hurts and I seriously feel like tears are a-comin'.

The Blog Of Music Videos

Here is every song that makes me feel good at this exact moment.
Maybe someday I (or you) will look back and enjoy these songs when I (or you) am/are feeling down.

I got Disco Fever

Have you ever had those nights where you just want to go to a city and explore?
And Just appreciate every little thing?
I have that exact feeling right now.
It's no fun when you can't actually follow through with it.
Man being 18 is gonna hit me hard.
It's like I can do anything I want. (Besides of course drink and gamble...neither of which sound applealing so that's okay.)
Not that being 16 is bad, because it's not and I'm not locked up or anything.
I like how it is right now.
Well, not how my life is going, because I'm always stuck, but I like knowing that I can appreciate being 18 for what it is when the time comes.
If I was given too much freedom growing up, I really don't think being 18 would be as exciting as it is now.

In 5 days I will have had my blog for ONE year!
Nostalgia Nerd comes to the rescue once again.

I want to write.
A Book.
That's all I'm going to say.

Turkey day is in 17, count 'em, 17 days!
I love me some Thanksgiving.
My house always smells awesome, we have quiche, and there is a parade.
Watching the musical performances on the Macy's Parade is so much fun.

I love my college (high school) english class.
It's practically filled with all high school juniors.
Except for 1 girl who just graduated, and 3 married people.
But everyone makes these intelligent remarks, which only a few people laugh at. And some laugh too hard.
It's just fun.
"I'm President. I'm here at Area 51. SHOW ME THE ALIENS. NOW."

If anyone knows some good volunteering places, let me know.
I haven't volunteered in such a long time, and it feels about time.
Not because it's almost the holidays.
It's just been way too long.

I'd like to thank this time to thank all the veterans.
Not just because we get a day off of school tomorrow,
but I really do appreciate everything they've fought for.
Because of their work, we can say whatever we want.
So, if you hate veterans, feel free to say so, and then you can turn around and thank them for fighting for your right to speak your mind.
Oh, and one more thing.
SAY THE PLEDGE. Or get out of America, because I'd much rather have someone who cares about their country, then someone who has no respect for it.

The rain was good to me today.
My hair stayed straight even through treacherous downpour.
And it was beautiful!

It's about time to get controversial up in here.
Well, not really. I'm just going to talk about God.
Who, after some time, I've realized really is real, and I do 100% believe in Him.
I always felt weird or embarrased admitting that, but now I don't.
I have NO reason to.
So what if someone criticizes me for believing? It's MY belief.
I'm not going to deny God just so I'll fit in during these 100 or so years on Earth.
My ultimate goal is Heaven. I can't imagine spending eternity in Hell for trying to look cool for some friends.
I wish everyone believed in God.
Because I do not want to go to Heaven, and know that I have friends who don't believe.
But I won't shove my religion down your throat. Since I hate it when others do that to me.
I'm here to talk to anyone, but please, if I don't shove my ideas onto you, don't shove yours onto me.
If you believe in God and Jesus, I highly recommend getting it out there.
It doesn't even have to be saying it to someone, but just know that you do, and never deny it.
Life is so much bigger than we can fathom, and I know that God has so much to do with it, or rather, everything to do with it.
There's my schpeal.

I cannot wait to travel.
I'm sure you are all tired of hearing about my travel dreams.
But you gotta dream a little dream, no?

I love writing. So much. I could write everyday for the rest of my life, and be perfetly okay with that.
Okay I feel a lot better about this vent session.
Which is exactly what every blog is to me. A vent session is.
Since I believe my friends are getting sick of me venting to them.
Not like I talk to any friends anymore, really.
Feeling friendless is weird.
And in an odd sense, I'm okay with it. Just a little bit. Mostly I miss my friends.
Chelsey, Cierra, Izzie, Sophie, and most of all Renee-
We need to hang out soon.
Call me up sometime.
I miss you guys.

Wow.

Sometimes things happen...
Hah.
I can't even describe how pissed and surprised I am.
I feel like an idiot.
And I also feel awesome.
Fuck.

I'm Really Freaking Sick

Of how I am right now.
I would not call it a high point in my life at all.
I'm not depressed or anything but I am in a rut,
and what's worse than being in a rut is that I realize it, and I haven't done anything to get out of it.
Well that's about to change.
I am seriously not going to keep going on like this.
It's hard to explain, but I can clearly see every point where I am going wrong in my life.
I wouldn't call this some deep dark statement, it's just a realization.
I'm much too youn, that's all I have to say.

Hello, High School.

Tonight, I'm making a list of everything I want to do before my high school career is over.
1 year and 2 months to go. I am very excited.
BRING IT BGHS.