Sunday, November 23, 2008

We Can All Survive Two Days.

That's all.
2 DAYS.
Then sweet sweet freedom of our first official break of the year.
Well, bitter sweet for some college kids.
After the break we have 1 week until finals, but then almost a month off until new quarter begins.
YES.
I will be doing homework all day Wednesday and Thursday because I'm not celebrating Turkey Day until Friday.
It's hard to believe that it's this week.
I love Thanksgiving so so so so much.

I'm in ipod rehab.
Not by choice.
I had to quit my ipod cold turkey when it died on the treadmill, and I feel like the withdrawls are only getting worse, not better
over time.
If someone would just give me their ipod video classic for free, I'd be more than willing to make them cookies, or fudge or a sandwhich.
More than willing.

I re-pierced my nose for the 4th time last night.
It hurt so bad I was crying, but it was so worth it.
I hate piercing it on my own because it's not a fast simple process like the two times I got it done professionally.
But it saves $30-$40.
So worth it.

I will never smoke pot.
I will never smoke a cigarrette.
I will never smoke hookah.
I will never do any illegal drug.
And I honestly think I will never drink.
I mean all of that.
I wish people who said things like that actually did.
The other day I heard the excuse to doing things like smoking and drugs was, "Well. That's high school."
No.
No is what I couldn't say. But what I meant.
High School is NO excuse to engage in illegal activities.
If our generation is so set on "change" and acting like adults, then start setting good examples for future generations.
I'm ending friendships for repetitive bad choices made.
I'm not going to surround myself with people who lie to me about things they've done (trust me, I always find out) or people who I don't feel comfortable hanging out with because they might persuade me to do things that are wrong.
I've got enough will power to say no.
That's not the problem.
I just don't want to be sucked into their mess.
I've shed way too many tears over trying to mend friendships. I now realize I'm not going to try and fix something that I'm better than.
I'm going to live a productive life filled with ups and down, but I won't be under the influence for any of it.
And that is a pretty incredible thing to say.
If you don't like it, then I'm not sorry.
I'm perfectly okay with not having a lot of friends for now, if that means I know I'm doing good things with my life.
More time to focus on family, school, and my future.
You can't lie to me for so long and expect me to be okay with that.

Whoa.
How come every time I start writing a bunch of emotional stuff just comes out?
I don't know.
But I'm okay with it.
It's time to watch a chick flick and do some laundry.
Tomorrow is Monday....and Thursday.
Oh heck to the yes.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

(Your blog won't let me post under my livejournal name, by the way.)

Let's make of day of being rebellious sometime.
It'd be fun. :D

- Izzo

Anonymous said...

But I get all nervous when I think about asking him! I'm such a coward. I don't think I can do it. I want to, but I can't. FRICK.

If you want to talk to me, but don't want to use myspace: izzie_oliveira@hotmail.com
I don't know your email...

-izzo

P.S. You can't just disappear from myspace AND not update your blogger. It's not fair!