It's a mush feeling

That I just sunk into.

I honestly feel like I want to cry, for reasons I don't get.

(I was almost gonna put "for reasons I don't know why" but it would have rhymed, and that just isn't the kinda vibe I want to put in this blog.)

Little Jackie has been playing non-stop for 2 days, but right now it's just too cheery.

A few of The After's songs will do.

I don't mean to be so depressing, but I just feel kinda crappy right now.

Not crappy like sick, just bummed.

I have had a great day, though.

The Fair is always a fun point in the summer.

I saw Kaitlyn, who I missed a bunch, and Maren (we decided we will go to coffee soon)

so that was awesome.

I kind of want to cry, but I don't know if I'm that bummed, yet.

I shouldn't put this much thought into my tear ducts I'm assuming.

Maybe I'll just read.

Or sleep.

But sleep always seems like a bad thing to do when you're upset. I say cry or talk it out.

Never go to bed upset.

I really want a boyfriend.

Or just a crush and someone to adore.

Is that so much to ask?

Of course it is.

I feel like releasing some creative energy, or doing something productive.

No. Since that might make me feel better.

I just want to sulk.

Ugh I am in such a shitty mood it's ridiculous.